the way it all happened:
friday night we went to bed without a care in the world. we had just gone out on a date while grandma & grandpa watched fal gal. around 1:30 am, i woke up feeling contractions, but didn't think much of them. they continued happening and began getting quite unpleasant. after about 3 hours of hoo-hoo-hoo-ing (hoo like a breath, not like an owl), i told bry i thought we should call the doctor. the contractions weren't particularly close together- anywhere from every 6 to every 9 minutes, but the pain was immense. sure enough the doctor said i should probably go in.
en route to the hospital (5 am), we still didn't think savvy would be coming. false labor, dehydration caused contractions, and every other possible situation was going through my head. even at the valet, bryon asked, "where do we go for a possible labor?" all the while assuming more not possible than possible. after getting checked, the nurse assured us that at 6 cm dilated, we were absolutely going to have a baby soon. sure enough, about 2 hours later (8:23 am) savvy was born. she is perfect.
6 lbs, 6 oz, 19 in long, she certainly didn't LOOK too premature. she spent the first 12 hours in the room with us. i had a feeling in the depth of my stomach that we were not in the clear. i felt nervous as the nurses would take her for the routine tests and certainly hunched we were far from "in the clear" with our beautiful, BEAUTIFUL little peanut.
at 7:15 that evening, bry was in the hallway chasing fal around, approaching the nursery to peek in at her baby sister. as he walked up, the nurse caring for savvy had her turned on her side, hitting the call button that sent 6 nurses rushing over and that apparently also closes the blinds to the nursery. yikes. he let us know what he saw and we waited in anticipation for about 45 minutes. they let us know that she had a "dusky spell" where she stopped breathing and her face turned blue. it could be nothing or it could be a result of her immaturity. they wanted to give her one more chance to prove it was nothing. no such luck.
at midnight that night, the nurse came in and let us know she had been submitted to the NICU and that we could go see her. words cannot begin to describe the feeling. our baby girl was now plugged into several machines and sitting under a warming lamp. it was such a juxtaposition of feeling peaceful that our daughter was now getting the care she needed and also worrying that our daughter needed extra care.
a lot blurs together after that.
savvy just has some maturing to do. her spells have continued here and there, the good news is she has been pulling herself out of them. she is no longer on a iv, she is consuming above her "minimum" in calories, her vitals all look great, she is clear of infection, and it feels like she is beginning to "get it." the doctor wants her to be episode free for awhile before sending her home, so there is not an end date in sight at this point. it is up to her.
she is a fighter. i'm so proud of her developing endurance in nursing, as clearly this is a tough task for a 36-weeker. the nurses regularly comment on her feistiness. our hearts are so filled with love for our little munchkin and we feel blessed for the story that God has written for her.
we can't wait to take her home, but are certainly in no rush until she is ready.
about a month ago, i told bryon that i felt like God was preparing me for something. i had been experiencing an enlightening that i had never known. He kept putting me in scenarios that were teaching me about contentment and thanksgiving in every season of our lives. that it is a choice to rejoice during the hard stuff and trust in God's sovereignty. i didn't want to seem skeptical, but i felt as though he had something planned for me to use the lessons He was teaching me. now i know what that was. peace and optimism have stayed with us, for the most part. every once in awhile, weariness sets in and we have to fight off negative thoughts. we feel so blessed with our little girl and our hearts are spilling with love and admiration for her perseverance.
we would love prayer for her growth and maturity. please pray for fallon as well. she is having so much fun with our generous and self-less parents and her excitement to see grandma's and grandpa's and cousins and aunts and uncles is so reassuring and she is thriving. HOWEVER, it is rockin her world. i miss her like crazy and keep reminding myself that God is protecting all of us.
thank you so much for all of the encouraging texts and emails and prayers that have obviously been coming!
no time to edit, so hopefully this all came together :) i will keep updating as time allows!